mind games are for one player

i am
speeding on a
white train to nowhere
i want my voice
while your
head
screams of
confusion
i want words you
see, alighted in smoke
i want ashes on your pillowcase,
sprinting in a circle
crying out emotion!
i want
you can
look in my head
i put you there to be
alone with me
so we blind reality
curtains on our eyes
mirrored faces in the grave-
slope of a crevassed brain encased-
not even a haze can show through
i am speeding
but it’s getting me
nowhere
somehow i am you

(c) Caitlin C.