not a color yet, not a home anymore

you are branches of a better tree,
a road beyond recognition that i
search for meaning
search for pieces to the endless puzzle 
i struggle to find
my own
soul
the curvature in this pavement
suggests
i may rest, i may try to start again
but i will never reach the end
because this beauty is only
sweet
when you're young
when you don't have to pretend
i might have grown past
that stage
with wilting flowers in
aging hair

i am a little girl
but i still want you to hold me 
in your arms